My condolences to you and your family. I too, am gay, and realized that I was when I was 14. It was a long, hard and complicated road to get to graduation in my high school as most of my classmates were "rich" and had zero tolerance for gay people. I almost had a law suit for sexual harassment against the school because they wouldn't do anything about the issues I was facing. This world can be cruel. Expecially the USA. Our "wonderful" United States claims to be a "christian" nation. Where in the bible does is say that Jesus ever had hatred toward a homosexual? He never did! He loved everyone!!! My heart goes out to you and yours as your pain will never completely go away. It will always be there.
With Deepest Sympathy,